Alligator Nightmares

I have no idea why but I have been having this recurring nightmare for the last 6 months  about alligators. Various scenarios but the one common thread is I am in a boat of some kind and an alligator grabs it and pushes it to shore. Last night I dreamt I was crossing the marsh (which there are no marshes here, I am in the mountains!) to go to my inlaws home. I see my father in law firing up his grill and my hubs come out the door with a plate of burgers and dogs. Then I see an agressive alligator (and it should be crocs but I dream alligators cause I am a dork like that) run towards them. I try to shout to warn them but something bumps my boat and I can feel my boat being pushed backwards towards my dock. I watch as 2 other alligators join the first one and attack my hubs an his dad. All while another alligator starts swimming along my boat as the original alligator is pushing it. Even weirder, I grab my teddy bear as we get closer to the dock and I try to figure out how I am going to get away from these alligators.

So another note to make is that my kids have never been in this nightmare. Or at least not that I ever remember. Whom is in it varies. Sometimes friends, sometimes I am alone, and sometimes adult family. I always have this teddy bear. I don’t recognize it, I was not a teddy bear kinda kid.

I could chalk this up to a bipolar thing. I have nightmares often. At least 3 times a week. It used to be a daily thing but it hasn’t been like that in about 7 years. I went to an online dream interpreter and apparently I am so odd that they couldn’t interpret it. I thought it might have something to do with our upcoming Florida trip but that doesn’t make sense. I was scared to death when we went two years ago for Orlando. I had imagined Florida as crawling with alligators, which I discovered wasn’t the case. When we visited Mr. P’s aunt in Homestead (down near the Keys) we did go to a sanctuary for alligators and crocs. We even rode an airboat and got to see them upclose. So I shouldn’t have a fear of alligators going on the massive attack like in my dreams. It’s not within their nature.  Oh well, hope it goes away soon. I don’t like how real my dream feels. I mean my sense of touch is crazy! I can remember what it felt like to touch the teddy bear, the cool of the metal on the sides of the boat as I gripped it in fear, and even the pushing of the alligators on my boat. I would almost say it has to do with a past life but the dream was in the here and now.