I am not doing a Follow Friday post this week. I am currently preparing for a weekend camping trip with my girls. We are leaving this afternoon when they get out of school. I have been very excited about this trip. Not only do I seriously need to get away for a couple days but I love celebrating Beltane out in the wilderness.

Unfortunatley I have been met with more family crisis. I am starting to think that this time of year is cursed for us. My inlaws just got back from their post tax season vacation two days ago. First thing I noticed was my father in law limping. It turns out his sciatic is pinched. He went to see the doctor about it yesterday. That’s when the hubs called me to tell me his dad is pretty sick. Fortunatley it’s not cancer! No this is clogged arteries. I am not someone who is really clear on medical terms so excuse me if I slaughter this to bits. His right (but it might be left cause i switch them up often) carteroid artery is “severely” clogged and his left carteroid artery is “heavily” clogged. I have no idea on percentages, I wish I did because that would make things a bit more clearer since “severely” and “heavily” could be subjective terms. Hubs is worried, as well as my mother in law. As of right now my father in law has to sit with his legs propped up (which will aggravate that sciatic nerve some more!) and not be able to get up and move around a whole lot.  I have repeatedly asked if I should stay in town but no one really wants to say that I should stay. So for now I am planning on going and we will see how today pans out.

I am no longer sure that I will be going to Florida with the hubs to spread his brothers’ ashes. It’s been no secret that my brother in law and I were not best of friends. We actually were not fond of each other. We were however, cordial at any family gatherings. Anywho it was not in his last wishes that I be on the boat to spread the ashes. Hubs has been struggling with this. On one hand I think he wants me there for him but at the same time he wants to honor his brothers’ wishes. So we talked a bit last night about it and I informed him that it would be ok if I didn’t go, no hard feelings. Despite my relationship with my brother in law, his wishes are the most important thing and should be respected. But if the hubs really wants me to go I will go. Either way I won’t pressure him one way or another.

On top of it all one of my closest friends has made an appearance in my life so to speak. Years ago I had a very close friend by the name of Donna. Back then I was Catholic and she was pagan. She was one of the first women I allowed into my life and I had no idea why it was her. But for whatever reason she was a wonderful asset into my life and helped me work out relationship issues I had with women. I considered her to be my closest friend at the time. Then in 2001 she passed away. She had some kind of seizure in the parking lot of a restaurant we both had worked at (although at the time i was no longer employed there) and ended up in a coma. The painful decision was made to remove her from life support and it had looked like she would turn everything around. Everyone went home for much needed sleep and showers and she passed. It really hurt to lose her. It wasn’t until 2004 when I began my studies in paganism and I have often thought about how badly I wish she was around to talk to about it. Religion was one of our favorite topics to talk about and I have no doubt that it still would be. Anywho the point of all of this is, I found someone who knew her on Twitter. I hadn’t thought about Donna in a long time so as I tweeted with this person I felt the sorrow all over again. 

So there it is, what should be an exciting weekend is being overshadowed with some unpleasant events. I am sure that once I get to the Beltane campsite I will enjoy myself. For now I just need to work out my emotions.

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