I have made some changes around here at the blog. The shop has been edited and i have included some pics of what you can find at the CafePress site. Paypal buttons were being a pain so I am not using them. I had gotten an email from someone wanting to buy my shawl pattern. Unfortunately not only would the button not work, my shawl pattern got eaten in my hard drive. I am absolutely livid! On top of all of that, gmail ate the email I got from the individual wanting the pattern. I checked in every single folder and cannot find it at all! So if you are the person who emailed me, sorry!

I haven’t gotten any new pages up in the last few days but I did update Out & About, although now that i looked at it I need to revise the Pagan Pride Day in Raleigh. I will be there ONLY on the 18th. Still working out those details. I also listed my birthday cause I am feeling pretty excited about hitting a milestone. 35 is a milestone, right?

I think I have made it pretty clear that aging doesn’t bother me. Sure, I have my days where I feel really old but for most of the time I am quite content with my age. Although I have to admit I am ready to hit the Crone stage. Really, I am totally ready. Someone had commented the other day not to wish my life away. I just don’t see it like that. Sometimes I feel stagnant in my current stage of life and I am someone who is always looking to move on once i feel stagnant. Really, it’s like that with everything. If I am bored, it’s time to move forward. I don’t want to move back, oh no no no no nothing like that. I am ready for menopause. Seriously, I have had my menstrual cycle since I was 9. Almost 26 years of that. I am very ready to move on. I am ok with my babies growing up, because they will always be babies. Gray hair? Ok well I probably won’t actually see those since I have a love for dying my hair (not to cover gray, I get bored with my hair color). I am not scared of death (just please don’t let it be painful!) so no worries about growing old and dying. I am just ready.

Now having re read all of that, it looks like I am plain bored. Doesn’t it? I guess in some ways I am. I don’t feel particularly bored lately. I have had some great opportunities come my way. I feel like I am fulfilling my own personal needs and being progressive in my life. So I am not sure why there is a need to move to the next stage, but it’s there. I have thought about whether it’s “I want to slow down” and I can’t imagine slowing down even in old age. I mean granted i may not be able to and that’s OK. I guess maybe it’s a curiosity thing, like what would it be like to be in the Crone stage? Let’s face it, being a Crone is a pretty powerful thing. They are considered wise and very knowledgeable. They have a lifetime of experience that younger ones dream of. So if Jung was examining me, I would imagine he would say that I am craving respect. Maybe so?

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