Yea so my next camping trip won’t get here quick enough. LOL, already I am ready to hightail it out of town for another vacation. I am starting to question whether or not my decision to take on clergy role is really a good idea. Part of it is because I am so damned exhausted and really wish I could do strictly clergy work. But I can’t, I need to be working to pay the bills. Especially now that I have a car payment. On top of that, the work I have been doing is so damned infuriating that I am not sure if I can keep myself composed. But the mere thought of quitting makes me depressed, so I don’t know. It’s just where I am today. Tomorrow I might be back up and fired up and ready to go.

We celebrated Beltane over the weekend with the Temple. Eldest played Maiden. Do you see how tall she is? I am 5’9 and she is freaking 12 years old! *Sigh*

We had a lovely time. We said Goodbye to the Baba Yaga and hello to the Maidens. We danced. We sang. We had an amazing amount of people on the sidelines just watching. Perfect weather and a perfect crowd.

Sunday I spent about 8.5 hours canvassing a section of town in opposition of Amendment One. We had targets we needed to hit to make sure that they knew where to go to vote and the polling hours. We also hit homes in between and spoke with others. For the most part, the Amendment is being voted down by a large portion of our area. Some people chose not to speak with us. And I can count on one hand how many said they were actually going to vote for the Amendment. Today is voting day and I am completely on edge. Between phone bank, press conference, interfaith service, and canvassing……I will feel completely devastated if the Amendment is passed. Tonight is a polling party for Coalition to Protect All NC Families and I can’t decide if I want to go or not. On one hand if it’s passed, I would rather sob in the privacy of my own home. On the other, if it doesn’t pass then I want to rejoice with all of the hard working volunteers and members of the Coalition. I just don’t know what to do.

At the same time we are still dealing with the City School Board and last night’s meeting left me feeling jaded by the fellow parents as well as frustrated beyond belief. The issue of religions in the school was grossly ignored. Out of 30 speakers only 3 adults and 3 children spoke about it. While the other issues at hand are as important, I thought the meeting was specifically about the assembly and it wasn’t. I have no idea what the hell I am doing next but I am going to make some phone calls later tonight I think.

And of course at work I got a nice load of things to do plus an audit this week. The middle school needs volunteers next week to help proctor over the EOG’s and I have considered doing that. But it means a training session on Thursday and I can only do it if they can get me in before the 17th. Cause I leave on the 17th for Pagan Unity Fest (which is my camping trip). So yea. I need another getaway. But then I wonder if this is not some sort of test. Like this has all come my way because I need to see if I can handle it. Maybe.

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