I am having one of those months in which I get really good news and I can feel myself taking a step forward and then before I can even really enjoy the good news, a speed bump appears. And not just a wee speed bump but enough to push me backwards two steps. Overall it’s like a kiddie roller coaster. No real steep drops or anything but a consistent up and down motion.
As many know, I have been looking for new employment. I began mid October last year. Which means almost a full year, sort of. I actually began two years ago but I piddled around with it and just casually looked for a job. But last year was when I decided it had to be done and I really began actively applying. Daily. Several times a day to be honest. I am supposed to get two phone calls this week about two different jobs. Whomever gets to me first with an offer, wins. And because I know that one will be a definite yes/no and one is about moving forward to a face to face interview I decided that last night was the perfect night to really cast serious magic. Not a simple circle casting, speak a few words, and hope the Gods listen. No this was a gut wrenching plea for help. One in which I conversed with my deities and continued conversing this morning at meditation. I cried plenty, offered up herbal gifts, and poured the drink of my ancestors (vodka). I have assurance that I will get a job in October. I have assurance that all of this is taking place for a reason, the reason to allow that right thing in. I have assurance that all that I am doing is worth doing.
If only I could just do it without the damned speed bumps. But then I wouldn’t appreciate the benefits near as much…..would I?